Still missing you a lot. I read a quote from an article today. It says "Death is not a wound to be healed or a scar to fade. Once someone has been in the world, they have always been in the world; and once they have gone their absence will be in the world forever, part of the world (and part of me)." I like that as it suggests it's ok to leave the gap (your absence) empty and not to replace the gap with something else. As long as I can still function normally in my daily life and be happy in other aspects of life, I think it's ok. I took a picture for you today in the gardens in Mottisfont Abbey. You would like it there.